So sorry to hear about the loss of your mother. And Amen to what the other guys have said, as I can't really add much more. Praying for you & your family as you go through this tough time.
On a positive, I'm looking forward to continued seat progress as well. And it's great that your wife has helped you to not settle for second best, as we know that'll just leave you not happy & constantly second-guessing yourself. She sounds like a great partner in crime.